Time
It is crazy how fast time goes, when you realize it. How fast these past few years have gone is hitting me hard lately. My only child, Chariece, will be turning 16 in 16 days. Times that I once thought would be forever are right around the corner. She will be getting a job, a car, and eventually a life without me. These truths are very hard to come to terms with. One day soon, I will have to help her pack her belongings into her own vehicle and watch her drive away. I will call her name and she will not be there.
I question myself now more than ever. Have I taught her all the lessons in life and prepared for adulthood? The sad part is I know there are things that she will have to experience on her own. I am not ready for my baby to be disappointed, unhappy, sick without me. However, it is time for me to face the fact that it is coming. College applications are arriving daily, now.
As a parent, no one is perfect. I am confident in the manner I raised Chariece. Although I can not choose her actions, I hope she thinks of me, when in a unhealthy situation. This makes these last few years I have with her critical. I don't have much time left before she leaves the nest, so I am going to appreciate it and make it count.
Dorthea,
ReplyDeleteI can feel your emotions here. It must be so difficult to lose a child to the world and hope that you did everything to prepare them. I have little ones and although I am not where you are, I still think about preparing them for life. I worry so much, but at least I am not alone. Those of us who worry are probably doing great work!