Yesterday, I received the news of my great-grandfather's passing. I was devastated, and in a state of shock. I was expecting it, but didn't want to accept the fact that he was going to go any day.
Robert E. Young, one of the most amazing people I always looked up to is gone. I remember the days back years ago where I would spend all day and night with him. I would help him harvest his garden of cucumbers, bell peppers, carrots, squash, and tomatoes every year before I went back home for school. I don't exactly know how to deal with this. My heart is shattered into a millions pieces. How do you go on with your life, knowing the one person who was there for you no matter what mess you got yourself into, was gone? I don't know what to say or do. I've cried for hours on end, and keep asking God why he took him from me. But no answer is ever given. I've been so caught up in my own life these last 3 years that I never made it down there to see him, let alone let him meet his great-great-grand kids. Lexie and Levi will never get to meet the man I loved so much and looked up to as a role model to always strive for the best, never settling for anything less. I know he would have loved to meet them, and it kills me that I never took them down there to Columbus, Georgia to meet him.
I'm trying to keep my head up and to keep going because I know that's what he would have wanted. I know he would want me to succeed in school, and be the best mother that I can be. Today, I put on a smile as I remembered him for the amazing man he was and still is.
I am sorry for your loss. It is good to remember the good times. You cant chance the past but appreciate the time you did have.
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ReplyDeleteI hope you find peace with his passing and remember the times you had together. It sounds like you were both an important part of each other's lives. Thank you for sharing.